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In the past one week, I have been feeling so unconfortable, cranky, crazy within. I know i am physcially fit and fine. I have nothing to worry. Some may say, its just that I am too impatient about my job hunt. Truly, its not the case, I have really other important things to do at home. I need to take care of my little darling, help her gain weight, help her understand everything in this world has a name, and when we speak we mean something. She is so naive.. oh my !!!I have to get back to shape, yes i have to shed some weight in all odd places.

Still, I can feel some odd alphabets, figures, new faces in my head when i am awake and asleep. There is a very vague noise.. like lots of people trying to convey thier opinions at the same time. I just feel like opening my mouth and scream, or sneeze so hard that they all will just slip out through my mouth and nose. Its some time blue, some times red and very rarely yellow. Its more like the scene from matrix movie or GAJINI.

I know for sure, just some prayers, funny movie or a walk out in the rain is going to make it alright. But i dont have anytime for that. I am so captured by these anonymous people.

SOS please.